It's Christmas cheer week at work and today is Christmas fashions day. I decided to participate, mostly because I was going to wear something Christmas themed anyhow.
I'm working my way through my second Christmas without Michael. This one is a little bit easier, but when I see my memories in Facebook, I can't help but feel sad at some of them.
I loved our tree, every single year. Each year I'd think it couldn't be prettier, but it was. I'd have a tree this year, but one word - Lucky. Something tells me he'd scale a tree in a hot second and be proud of his accomplishment.
I think I'm finally adjusting to being alone. It's not a depressing thing. I'm content in my home. I love sharing it with Lucky. Our relationship is constantly evolving as the trust grows. He's just recently been coming to me to sit on my lap for a little bit or get close for pettings.
It's definitely a more quiet life than what I was used to. I'm home more than I'm away. I don't go out to eat much. I'm in bed at an earlier hour. To describe it, it's sounds like all the fun has been sucked out of my life, but it's really not that. It's just different now and I have found a peace with it.
In my last post I mentioned I was excited about hosting Thanksgiving. I ended up with there being 11 of us in my house. It was full up and it was a grand time! My turkey was frozen when I got up, but I managed to get it thawed by 8:30, so it was in the oven shortly after that. I'd rubbed it with a compound butter and he browned beautifully. Even Mom had to admit it was a great turkey, ha!
My SIL said she was enjoying just having to make the dishes she brought, she was not stressed and loved that. My brother said I have inherited Thanksgiving now, as long as the numbers stay around the same.
I did take a few moments to take in everything, as this was the first big holiday I'd ever hosted. I looked at everyone talking, laughing, eating and enjoying themselves and felt content. Actually, I felt really proud! The fact that everyone seemed to be happy filled me with joy. Turns out I do like hosting things!
Soon my holiday break will be starting and I'll be off work for 17 straight days! Oh how I'm looking forward to this! It will be a Merry Christmas and a hopefully happy start to 2022!
