Change is hard

 Today the boys came to start the process of clearing out the house. They worked so hard!  They got all their father’s tools cleared out and one bedroom cleared out. It was so much work and so much stuff. 

I only had one real melt down. I think it was the reminder that he’s not coming back. He’s really gone and life moves on.   Seeing his treasured possessions being taken away kind of gutted me, even though I know it had to be done.  Oh hell, I’m full on crying now. I haven’t had a melt down in a while. 

I miss my best friend. It’s that simple. 

Construction has started!

 They started construction on my town house. I’m excited. It’s hard living in this house without Michael. 

Even though it’s been four months I still expect to see him walk down the hallway. It’s just not the same being here without him. So much heartbreak, it’s so overwhelming sometimes.  Everywhere I look, I see Michael. Every room, every nook and cranny, it all reminds me that he’s gone  

The great thing about memories is they can be carried with you.  He’ll always be with me ❤️

Four months

 Yesterday was four months since Michael's passing.  It seems unreal that a third of a year is gone, just like that.

My life has changed so much in four months and will change so much again in the next four months.

The world just keeps spinning...